Pick up the pieces and go home

blahhhhhhhh

2006-12-06T08:56:52Z

im fat and ugly and i suck at life :)

aint that the fucking truth!!!

2006-12-01T17:55:12Z

Never Date an Aquarius

Freaky, unconventional, and downright strange - it's likely that any Aquarius will weird you out.
And if you do happen to fall for an Aquarius, you'll probably find them too emotionally distant to connect with.

Instead try dating: Cancer, Pisces, Capricorn, or Virgo

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

owch!!!!!

2006-12-01T17:37:44Z

so the pain from my ear woke me up at like 8 oclock this morning...me..being the stubborn bitch that i am tried to pretend that this damn ear infection was going to go away...however it got about 100 times worse since last night... so..without a doubt i took my ass to urgent care...which was surprisingly enough not a bad experience...i only had to wait for about 5 minutes in the waiting room and the doctor saw me right away...once again...for the second time in my life..the doctor took one look at my ear and put a wick..this plug like thing in my ear and gave me some antibiotic ear drops..it started to feel better but now i have a plug in my right ear which means i cannot hear a damn thing...
so if you see me anytime soon...please speak at a very loud tone so that i may hear your every word

come back!!!!!

2006-11-29T09:30:36Z

i know that nobody cares...but im fucking addicted to myspace now that i have one...
and for some god forsaken reason...i cant get to my myspace tonight and i want to die...
its saying something about routine maintenance...they need to get their shit together cuz a sad addicted technology whore now....

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-11-25T17:39:00

2006-11-25T17:39:42Z

Life just continues to get more and more complex everyday...
I should just hop the greyhound bus to anywhere..because i cant deal with shit

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-11-23T06:48:00

2006-11-23T06:48:46Z

Happy turkey day to everyone... Or even if its not completely happy, then try to make it tolerable...thats pretty much my plan

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-11-17T18:08:00

2006-11-17T18:08:26Z

I lie to my parents about who i am and what i do in every aspect of my life because i am sick and tired of seeing their looks of disappointment...ive gone to extreme measures in my life in order to make them happy...but i dont know how much longer i can keep this up... they know nothing about me or my life...and its starting to become much more apparent

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-10-31T17:57:00

2006-10-31T18:00:37Z

Halloween party tonight at my house...

Rest in Peace Bruiser

2006-10-27T17:42:25Z

Bruiser....you have been my friend for 8 years...its so hard to let you go... i hope you understand that i did what i did out of love, and i was there even though you couldnt see me...
you always will hold a place in my heart... even when the pain turns numb, you will always be in there... the house seems so empty without you here... i miss everything about you...
i hope that if you should ever find in your next life you are a stray puppy or kitten, you would come to my door... to your door...that you would come home...you know where home is...
but until then, know that you are loved...and always will be

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-10-18T05:28:00

2006-10-18T05:38:10Z

so i havent talked to my friend lisa in like a year...then i see her online ..and she is in florida now...and wants me to come visit her (which i probably wont cuz i hate to fly)....
but anyway...she tells me..."natalie..you need a myspace...come on..get with it here" Everyone tells me i need a myspace...i have lived for 27 years perfectly happy without one...so why do i "need" one????? Anyway...i may get one...but not cuz i need one...plus i dont own a camera...so you know...what the fuck am i supposed to put on myspace...pictures of martha stewart???
but it was nice to hear from her...i havent seen her in so long and i miss her alot...

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-10-12T00:44:00

2006-10-12T00:51:32Z

completely wretched day off...i feel like im losing my mind..
i cleaned the house...took bruiser to the vet cuz he is pissing blood in the house...
it was awful cuz they had to muzzle him and shaved his neck to take blood..poor kitty...
now i dont find out whats wrong with him until tomorrow..and he has lost 3 pounds...which the vet seemed quite concerned about..
he has been my buddy for the last 8 years...so many things he has been through with me...i know it sounds dumb to talk this way about a cat..but if something is seriously wrong with him..im going to be very very sad for a very long time...right now he looks so pitiful with his shaved neck and his fur is falling out anyway...
to make matters worse..my washing machine is broke...so i had to go to the fucking laundrymat today... i wont even go into that...
think im gonna see if jacob is home...i need to get out of my house before i lose it..

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-10-03T02:05:00

2006-10-03T07:09:39Z

blobityblahblahblah.....
i hate bars...why the fuck do i subject myself to torture...
dont think im going to ever leave my fucking house again

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-09-17T22:52:00

2006-09-18T03:59:51Z

"i had to leave the house of fashion
go forth naked from its doors
cuz women should be allies
not competitors
i had to leave the house of god
cuz the cross replaced the wheel
and the goddesses were out in the garden
with the plants that nourish and heal

i had to leave the house of privilege
spend christmas homeless and feeling bad
to learn that privilege is a headache
that you dont know that you dont have
and i had to leave the house of television
to start noticing the clouds
its amazing the stuff you see
when you finally shed that shroud

i had to leave the house of conformity
in order to make art
i had to be more or less true
to learn to tell the two apart
and i had to leave the house of fear
just about as soon as i could crawl
ignore my face on the wanted poster
stuck to the post office wall

i had to leave the house of self-importance
to doodle my first tattoo
realize a tattoo is no more permanent
than i am, and who
ever said that life is suffering
i think they had their finger on the pulse of joy
aint the power of transcendence
the greatest one we can employ"

shroud by ani difranco

bye bye martha

2006-09-16T07:00:15Z

blah...finally changed my stupid background

so this is what life has become

2006-07-15T02:11:47Z

im a stupid fucking idiot...

i dont want to do it

2006-07-11T21:08:01Z

argh....midnight shift starts tonight...i would rather sit at home and watch justice league..but i guess im supposed to be an adult now or something...
at least ive got my nintendo ds to take with me everywhere i go....
anyway..im officially a ghost..at least for a few weeks now

PAT BENETAR....YOU ARE STILL GOD!!!!!

2006-07-07T07:25:24Z

god damn...sometimes i hate the ringing in my ears i recieve after going to a loud smoky ass bar..

bombs....

2006-07-05T02:44:18Z

ahhh...it sounds like fucking world war 3 outside of my house right now...
by the way..happy 4th of july...
lilly and sunny are curled up on the couch in horror...what a wonderful holiday...
and some asshole keeps throwing those spinner things right towards my fucking house..if i find this person, i will remove their fingers

superman is dead!!!!

2006-07-03T03:54:36Z

ok...havent been on in awhile because of my loathing of technology...anyway...went to see superman returns today....one of the worst movies ive seen in awhile...its scary...
3 hours of mediocre acting and i couldnt even stretch my knee...so needless to say i was in some pain...was pissed off...and i hate people...
then we were driving home past the fucking fireworks stands...it was like a fucking circus freakshow..people wasting money they probably dont have on shit they dont need...
anyway...probably going to sit at home and waste away with bobby..who is sleeping right now on the couch..i can hear him snoring from in here...so i must go torture him...(i love these wonderful loving moments)...hahaha...bye bye

HOOOORAYYYY!!!!

2006-02-17T17:34:17Z

I GOT A JOB...
thank you to everyone who supported me this week while i lost my mind

gold_dust_womyn @ 2006-02-12T23:56:00

2006-02-13T05:56:54Z

im fucking losing my mind

UNEMPLOYMENT...YOU KNEW I WAS GOING TO WRITE ABOUT IT

2006-02-13T03:13:39Z

so i quit my job today..no 2 weeks notice...no having another job lined up;....just fucking quit
you know what..i feel fucking great about it...
anyone know of a place i could work and make lots of money with low stress????

Lilly's new best friend

2006-01-09T06:17:40Z

So i just get home from Jacob's house, and let my dog out for her last potty of the evening....anyway...Lilly never likes to stay outside for too long...but for some reason tonight, she didnt want to come in the house...so i set the coffee pot..do a few things around the house...and i go outside to get her...she still is not coming in ....so i go up to her and take her in the house...as soon as she comes in the house she drops something on the living room floor..i look at it for a minute..it kinda looks like a turd...then i notice it has a tail...and something resembling some sort of extremity...i soon realize what is on my floor is a dead..decayed mouse....!!!!!so i pick it up and put it in the garbage...and lilly was looking at me like "mom...you just threw my best friend in the garbage"
lovely dog she is...
oh well ..off to bed now

Madness

2005-10-29T21:56:04Z

So..i cannot possibly update everyone on what has been going on in my life for the past month:
trying to redo the house....quitting hartsfield...starting new job...quitting new job...going back to hartsfield...watched the world series...bob...lilly...bruiser...poops...everyone in the household is doing just dandy...its saturday and im really bored...bob got a new computer monitor..he is playing some game right now..so i figured id chill on the computer for a bit...seeing as how my email had about 100 unread messages..mostly junk...
i cant wait for the snow to come...ive been waiting for awhile..hopefully it will be here soon...bob and i decided that people who like hot weather are overly-enthusiastic about life...and thats just not me...
though i enjoy life ..i guess im just not excited about much...
im going to be a very bitter old lady someday...i cant wait

yay...computer is working

2005-09-05T16:05:49Z

MY COMPUTER HAS BEEN NUKED...but now its working just fine...
anyway..happy labor day to people that i like..if i dont like you then go fuck yourself...
about the next door neighbor situation..ive decided that not speaking to her at all would be the best option since she is a waste of skin...
im not going to spend my energy worrying about what some shit face thinks about me...
i really dont care....people like her are so self absorbed its almost as if they have no soul or capacity to feel empathy for others...and so i find them worthless..
anyway..had a fun weekend..spent some time at jacobs on saturday with him and lala...discussing politics and religion...always a fun subject with me...then yesterday..was busy as hell...and got my hair cut finally after a year...think i will dye it black tonight...gotta go to my brother's house today for a cookout then back to work tomorrow...